- Things cannot be rushed. I am a person that likes having a plan and answers. Sometimes the plan is just to wait. I do not like waiting and people who know me would not call me a patient person. Patients is one thing that you will definitely learn through the infertility process.
- Try to relax. RELAX yeah right...infertility is stressful. You don't know the plan, you don't have answers, you feel rushed, you want a baby. I get it, but being stressed out will only cause more troubles for you. I admit during all my years of infertility I have had numerous breakdowns, cries, and panic attacks. The best thing I could tell you is focus on the reason you are doing it...remember you can always take a break, or go slower. Someone said to me with my last miscarriage "You know you don't even have to do this..." That was when I realized all the stress, not knowing, and not having answers was exactly what I wanted. Because I want a baby.
- You can't control anything about fertility. This was the hardest thing I had to learn. Everything that happens to you or your baby or your hubby is not always controllable. You can't control how many eggs you get, or if the baby will attach, or even how your body will react to all of it. I wanted answers, I wanted to be able to fix everything, and you just can't. The sooner you realize this the more at ease you will be. God in the end has wheel.
- Try to find things that make you happy. Go on dates with your spouse, travel, see a movie, get a hobby, help others. Taking time out for yourself can help your mind quiet, your soul feel fulfilled and make the waiting game so much easier.
- There is always a reason to be happy. I used to have to look forward to one thing during the week that made me feel happy, or get me excited, sometimes even just to make the time go by faster. There is always a reason to be happy.
- It is okay to get help. After I had my first baby I had postpartum depression pretty bad. Believe me I didn't want it, and I was still happy I was a mom. My hormones do not regulate themselves very well and I have no come to terms that maybe I will always be on depression medication, maybe I won't. It is okay to talk to someone about the way you feel. It may seem embarrassing or taboo, but everyone is crazy....Everyone's crazy looks different.
- You can do whatever you want to do. People have opinions about EVERYTHING and they have no problems telling you what you should and shouldn't do. You do whatever you think is best for you and your family. Everyone has intuition, use yours, make it stronger.
- Find someone to talk to with no judgement. This was for sure my husband. He was going though similar feelings and talking to him even with him not saying anything back was comforting. Just so he would know how I felt. But it doesn't have to be a spouse it can be a friend, a sibling and if you don't have anyone, just start writing.
- People want to help. Our first IVF process we were so excited to share with our family and friends what was going on. In the end I felt overwhelmed because so many bad things happened the second time I thought it would be better to keep it to ourselves. Man, did that backfire. After I miscarried no one knew I was even pregnant and when I needed help with my son, my house, and myself no one knew. The third time I decided I would write things down, share them in a blog, and tell my family and friends. People want to help and people need help as well. I hope there maybe there is at least one person that is reading this that I am helping.
- Going through IVF is totally worth it. Infertility is expensive right?? No kidding. After the consultation, the meds, the visits, the surgeries, the labs. It can get very overwhelming. We have taken out loans on our cars, opened credit card accounts, had yard sales, opened a gofundme account, had people donate....but let me tell you. In the end the heartache, the sleepless nights, the pain, the crying and the whole process is worth it. There is no amount of love that I could compare having a baby too. Whether you decide to adopt, foster, or infertility if you want a baby, don't give up because it is worth it, and you are worth it!
Saturday, May 6, 2017
10 Things I have learned through struggling with infertility
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
26 weeks and counting
I am now over half way through my pregnancy. As 23-24 weeks approached, I had a lot of nightmares and stressed constantly about my baby. Not for any particular reason except that is when Corbin died. I am now 26 weeks; contracting some, and my cervix is slowly changing. I have already been taking progesterone shots of Fridays (makenna injections), so my OB decided to put me on Nifedipine every 6 hours while I am contracting. Each pregnancy I swell up like a balloon and have always wondered if I have pre-eclampsia. My weight increases quickly, I get headaches, my blood pressure is elevated and the swelling. The nifedipine has definitely been helping my blood pressure. Even with the Nifedipine I still have a few contractions a day, but that is much better than what it was. Every 2 weeks my doctor is going to do an FFN (fetal fibernectin) swab. When this test is negative it is 99.3% negative, but if it is positive there is a chance that you will deliver in the next few weeks.
I have been worried this pregnancy but definitely not as much as others, my 4 year old has been keeping me busy and I like that I have distractions instead of focusing about the worry. My goal is to make it to 34 weeks. That would be 4 weeks longer than Owen and I am praying that my baby this time doesn't have to go to the NICU. I will however have to go back to work at 29 weeks, I took 2 30 day leave of absences, but will need to return after this one so that I don't lose my job.
I will have my gestational diabetes test on Thursday this week and also another FFN test. I will keep you all updated with my pregnancy and Joannas, the closer I get the more exciting I am, I can't wait to hold these last two babies of mine and become a mother of 3.
Wednesday, February 8, 2017
The truth about pregnancy
Sunday, December 4, 2016
Embryo transfer
How to have a successful egg retrieval
Sunday, September 25, 2016
Steps of IVF with a surrogate
- Talk with the fertility center of your choice for an initial consultation we have used Utah Fertility Center every time, we love them, and would never use another clinic. (Every time you start IVF you need one of these) at this appointment you will talk about what you will need to have done to start.
- Get labs drawn and have a water ultrasound. Both Joanna and Jason both had labs. (water ultrasound is about $450)
- Start birth control ($30 a pack)
- Contact the Reproductive attorney of your choice preferably in the state in which the baby will be born. The attorney that we have been using, has been awesome at answering questions over the phone about insurance, price, and other legal questions we have had. Of course you only need an attorney if you are using a surrogate.
- This is about where I had our egg retrieval, depending on what fertility clinic you use and what you have to do; ours cost about $8,500. We also did PGS which is an extra $4,000.
- Contact a licensed Clinical Psychologist that specializes in fertility. We were recommended to see Human Potential in Salt Lake City. Both couples will need an appointment. $275 a couple
- Once your surrogate has medical clearance from the fertility center contact the attorney again and get started on the contracts. Contracts are approx $2,000 and to have the court fees and home study $2,500 (yes, we have to have a home study; even though it's our baby).
- Your IVF coordinator will give you a color coded calendar that tells you when you appointments and when you start and stop a medication.
- For the transfer it will be $6,400 for our surrogate and $4,500 for myself.
You may be asking yourself; how could anyone ever afford this?? Although it is very expensive, we have saved; taken out loans on vehicles that were paid off, and opened numerous credit cards. There are many different options that I will talk about in another post. This is where we are at in the process of things. Our transfer date is October 28th and we are just so nervously excited. There are so many legal things that have to take place to have a surrogate, this part is actually more expensive than having the embryo transfer for our surrogate. Unfortunately this is just the way things go. Like I said earlier, no matter what happens it is our baby; even if we are called the "intended parents." Even if we have to get a court order for us to be on the birth certificate, we are still the parents. In the long run, none of this stuff is important. The only important thing is that WE ARE THE PARENTS, we have worked so hard for these babies and want them so much.
Saturday, May 21, 2016
Sinus Surgery
Since October I had about 6 sinus infections in 4 months. My CF doctor stated she didn't want to treat me any more and I needed to see an ENT. I set up my appointments and after my Sinus CT, it was confirmed that I had a crooked septum, I had polyps in my frontal sinus, no opening on my right side and my sinus cavities were full of infection. I had surgery on a Thursday morning. This was much different than my first sinus surgery and for sure a better recovery. They no longer use packing and my surgeon here is absolutely amazing!! I was under for 2 hours, he is very meticulous and made sure everything was done right. I had my mom come to watch O, but things went well. The older I get, I don't like the affect pain medication has on me. It doesn't make me tired, it actually gives me more focused energy which makes it difficult to sleep the tired off. I did however take medication for about a week. After day 4 I was able to get my splints out, which was such a relief. Today I actually had my post op appointment. Dr. Shroeder said every thing looked well and I could probably breathe better than I ever have.
Don't I just look so lovely in these photos??
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